Saturday, July 25, 2009

Wow...life is definitely a rollar coaster

Well hello fellow bloggers I have returned and am wiping the dust off me right now as I pick myself up off the floor. I feel like this is a regular thing for me...life kicks me down alot..recently I had major issues with a guy! After getting out of a horrible relationship and hanging out and seeing what life has to offer I made a commitment about a month ago to this guy and everything started out great then spiraled downward when he just wasn't putting in the effort and I was fed up and the night before he is suppose to leave for Vegas I leave the bar because he wasn't picking up my hints and me telling him I wanted to go home and since I LEFT I am the bad guy and I go home crying because he won't talk to me or want to find out why I am upset...he then leaves for Vegas the next day and doesn't talk to me for 4 days then last night randomly texts me and I was SO upset that I let my friend handle it and tell him off....god why is it I find these guys...that I become attached to and they just don't give a fuck! I mean I took a big chance especially having a son and being new to dating again and he knew this..but he still stomped on my heart...and still he doesn't even act like he is hurt what so ever..or care that I am hurt...how can he be so calm? I thought we were getting serious but I guess not...and I wish I just knew answers...who I am suppose to be with??..when do I find him and if I have found him then please tell me what am I suppose to do???..My head is going in a million different directions..and on top of that my ex of 4 years my baby's daddy..is in a new relationship and in love and openly expressing it all over the place..I had to delete my Myspace to escape it..and now I have to worry about my son and this new girl my ex is trying to push into the situation...man life can be so cruel sometimes..but hey you have pick yourself up every time and dust yourself off...and keep moving forward or else you will lay there and people will continue to walk on you..its things like this that make us stronger and able to approach new situations better...

3 comments:

  1. Goodness girl, you are going thru some stuff.. I hope everything turns around and starts getting better for ya! :)

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  2. UGH! Sounds like you've been having quite the time, and not in a good way! :( That sucks about the new girlfriend too. That would probably send me over the edge! You should have a talk with him about just how involved she gets with YOUR son!

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  3. I'm so sorry to hear that things are sucky. Are you in Spokane anymore??? Haven't seen you around much. Hang it there. :)

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